Saturday, January 2, 2010


A couple of months ago, I was having a bad day.

Now, I'm sure I've had bad days since that particular one, but this one stands out in my mind.
It was the kind of day that things weren't necessarily going wrong, but they certainly weren't going right.

I was feeling unproductive, unsuccessful and downright depressed. The sun wasn't shining, I couldn't figure out why I was feeling the way I was - which only made me more frustrated - and I didn't know where to go.

I was pondering where I was and if I was giving God my best - realized that I wasn't and that only made me sink farther into my bad mood.

Lost. That is how I felt. Lost, unfaithful and unworthy.

As I was walking and pondering my circumstance, I had my eyes glued to the sidewalk. I didn't want to fake a smile at the people passing by and I certainly didn't want them to guess that maybe all was not well.

Suddenly, into my view there came a dash of color on the gray concrete. I paused.

Something was written in bright blue chalk.

i love you.

"Really?" I wanted to ask. It was as if God had placed those words there just for me.

i love you. period.

I love you when you're lost, unfaithful, unworthy, undeserving, frustrated, depressed, angry, irritating. I love you when you refuse to love yourself.

Because that is what I do. It is Who I Am. I don't change. Neither does my love.

I won't let you forget it, even if I have to write it on a sidewalk so you'll see it.

"...for your love is ever before me, and I walk continually in your truth." Psalm 26:3

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